sad as usual..

finALLy iL see you tomorRow..two weeKS seem liKe eterNitY withOut YoU..i HoPe evRY seCond of EvErydaY i am With YoU..

im Just gLad thE LonG wAit is Over!!

i love you so much my keith...

maH favoriTe coLor....


You are the color pink. As a beautiful and sweet
human, you are everybody's favorite person.
Healthy and energetic, you're often seen
spreading the happines. As an unusually
charming and sweet person, you're always ready
to comfort people who are down. You sympathize
with everyone, but not always yourself. Aside
from that, you are light-hearted and cheery.
And you make it your duty to make every cloud
have


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ano bang meron ka?
pano mo nagagawa saken to?
parating pag-isip sayo...
nasa utak lang kita.
hindi naaalis.
nakatatak.
marahil di mo alam,
pinarurusahan mo ko.
pinahihirapan.
unti-unting pinapatay.
dahil napakahirap
at napakasakit malaman
na kailanman,
hindi mo mararamdaman para sa'kin
ang nararamdaman kong ito pra sa'yo...

--anonymous--

Trouble follows me to my doorsteps
I dont want to know
Blood from heaven and things from hell
they're forcing me where to go
so when you start to realise that
i get no more sleep oh brother
so when I walk and when I
so when I talk and its turning

I left my suicide note
on the door once more

The pipe is blowing and
they've started searching
im not afraid to go
so bring me so when i walk
and when i so when i talk
and its turning
so when you feel like love
so when you think above
and theres nobody there
and theres nobody here
so when you feel estranged
and theres no complaints
dear god im turning

I left my suicide note on the door
baby wont you look me in the eye once more
lost in eyes and
well he cant stand in my way
hit me I left my
things down to play


-anonymous-

i juz cant

The Person I am Now

The person I am now is molded by my past, shaped by the present and will be constructed by the future.
It seems like it was only yesterday when I made my first step, uttered my first word and recognized the people who brought me here in this world. It is through my parents whom I first learned the values of life. They were my first teacher, my only protector, my guidance and my care-giver. My parents were the one who caught me every time I fall from my bike or stairs, cheered me up when I didn’t receive a star in class, and gave me the courage to face the difficulties in life as I continue to grow.
And now that I am able to think on my own and make judgments or decisions by myself, my parents are more of my supporters than being my teacher when I was a child. But they are still the one who catches me every time I stumble, cheers me up when I am down, and gives me the courage to fight all my worries away. I know without them life would be harder for me to bear. That’s why I am thankful for their love, patience and time for dealing with my own stubbornness and shortcomings.
The experiences I had from the past made me a stronger person. The past was never really full of fun and laughter but there are also times of sorrow and tears. The pain was the one that molded me of what I am now. I had fights with my mother, I experienced being betrayed by my friends and even felt the pain of a broken heart. These are some of the incidents I faced years ago that I were able to cope up with by believing in my own strengths and power.
The present is equally important to my past. I wouldn’t be the person I am now without my own history. I proved to myself that the only permanent thing in this world is change. I know I had changed a lot as an individual. I have grown into a mature person who handles things differently. I realized that material things can’t buy me happiness which when I was a child I thought it can. I am more emotional now than I was before. Moreover, I know that love is what keeps me smiling, breathing and living. Love is what makes me happy. Life is love. I also came to understand that my purpose in life is to love selflessly. And I realized just like Jesus, love is enough to move me through life.
I had written a lot of things about my boyfriend and how he had changed me. Keith had inspired me through life. We may have countless arguments and shared different views and opinions, still I know that he had taught me to think more rationally. He opened my eyes to the reality that life can never be just pure bliss. I learned also to accept the unacceptable and to expect the unexpected. Also, I learned that life can really be short. The time I have right now would never be enough to show to the ones I love that I truly value and care for them especially for Keith. It’s like the time we have spent for each other was too few, too short and never will be enough. My greatest fear in life-to lose the one I dearly love. But I really cannot do anything. That’s God’s will and like any other I must accept it, though it pains me so much.
While what the future holds for me is uncertain I am sure that my past and the present would construct it for me. The decisions and actions I make now will be reflected on who will I be in the future. Though I had a clear vision of how I want to be in the future, I know that I have to work on it step by step, slowly but surely. I know I have a good foundation (my past and the present) that the future would be bright for me.
The past, present and future cannot stand alone because they continue to build the person that I am right now and will be. Truly life offered me a lot of ironies. I had cried a lot and still I can smile. I fell and stumbled and still I can get up. I was hurt still I can go on. I was betrayed still I can love. These are the paradox of life and these are the ones that made me the person I am right now.


*edited version..i got an A- in this paper

when you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. in the game of love, it doesnt really matter who won or who lost. what is important is you know when tohold on and when to let go.you know you really love someone when you want him/her to be happy,even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. everything happens for the best.if the person you love doesnt love you back, dont be afraid to love someone else again,for you'l never know unles u give it a try. you' l never love a person you love unless you risk for love. love strives in hurting. if you dont get hurt you dont learn how to love. love doesnt hurt all the time. though the hurting is still reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings us ti expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.

how to define love:fall but not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. it should inspire and give you joy and strength.

-anonymous-